I apologize

once again for not posting on a regular basis. Life does sometimes get in the way of our plans. 

For the last five months, I've been losing and gaining the same three or four pounds. For awhile, it was my fault and I accept the responsibility. I just wasn't working my plan like I should have been. I may have written about this before. If so, please forgive the repetition.

However, beginning in January, I really began to work the plan. I started watching my caloric and fat intake and being more careful about logging my intake in my food journal. I began walking daily. At least, I've been walking at work. We have long hallways where I've been walking during my meal breaks. I've been lucky enough to be assigned (if you believe in the Law of Attraction, you know there is no "luck" about it) to a dorm that has a microwave. So, I've been microwaving my meals and then using my meal breaks (breakfast and lunch) to walk the halls. Twice a day, 45 minutes each, seven days out of 14. 

And I'm still back and forth on that three or four pounds. My doctor had me get a fasting blood test because they were concerned that I might be diabetic, or severely insulin resistant. I had tests when I got my physical last summer, but they were suspect. My blood sugar was 10 and my potassium was 90. Either of which would have, at the least, put me into a coma. More likely, I would have been dead. As the PA said today, both are inconsistent with life. I had a second set run, but the results were never returned to my doctor. Why they didn't have me do a third set, I don't know, but they didn't want to trust that lab in any case. My husband was diabetic, so while I am far from an expert, I am familiar with the disease. I didn't believe that was the problem, and it turned out I was right. 

I had the blood test on Monday, and when I went in today, I found out that my blood sugar was 91 and my AC1 was 5.7. Both perfectly fine. So, that's not the problem. Next week, I begin my last month in the program, so I don't think they are going to worry too much about it. My health is good (proven by the tests) and there is no reason to think there is another problem that might be causing my lack of weight loss.

I believe that I'm gaining muscle. With the exercise (walking) I've been doing for the last 10 weeks, I think I'm losing fat, but replacing it with muscle. That would explain why I'm not showing loss, and sometimes, a gain. At least that's what I prefer to believe.

I have a total weight loss of 53 pounds as of today. So, while I would like it to be much more, I'm  happy to achieve this much. It's an achievement that I've never had before. 

Next month is my last month on the program. I won't meet the goal that was set at the original consultation (93 pounds), but I think that was rather optimistic. I know lots of people have lost that much and more in the same length of time, but I subscribe to the theory that if you lose weight too fast, it's that much easier to put back on again. 

I've decided that even though I'll be leaving the plan in four weeks, I will continue my efforts and make my own way through the Weight Loss Jungle. I have my plan. I have my exercise, and I have my mental attitude properly, positively adjusted. I may need a periodic mental adjustment, but that's to be expected. And, since I know it's going to happen, I can plan for it.

I said I had my plan. I also have a kitchen scale, a pedometer, and I will be getting a good bathroom scale. I know what I'm looking for, so I'll be getting that before long.

I want to be better about posting here. I have ideas for what this blog can be and hope to implement those ideas in the future. I don't expect to become the Martha Stewart of the dieting world, or the person who has all the answers about weight loss, but if I can give just one other person what they need to get through just today, I want to do it.   

Good luck to us all!